Isn’t interesting that once you open your heart and mind to God’s calling, it is hard to let go? But that is good. It means you are giving it serious thought. And that is what God wants you to do.
He gave you his best shot and you opened your heart and mind to him. He knows it is not an easy decision. It is definitely an epiphany moment. It will be the most important commitment in your lifetime if you answer the call.
Think about it like the birth of a child. You are in your mother’s womb, comfy and cozy. Then things start to change. You are bounced around, you wonder what is happening, you are being bruised and are frightfully scared. You have no idea what is happening. You then are pushed out into a new environment. “What is going on?” you wonder. Then, all at once, you feel the caress and warmth of your mother’s arms. You feel the love and at that moment, you are at peace and begin the new venture into the world.
Like the baby in the womb, you are seemingly content. But then God enters the picture and starts calling you. He is disturbing your comfort zone. You are struggling, wondering what is happening, yet you continue to listen to his call. And then it happens. You answer, “Yes, I will serve.” You reach an epiphany! At that moment you feel the love of God and you are at peace. No restlessness!
You have answered the summons. In a song called The Summons, there is a line that is apropos. The first line of the song says the following:
Will you come and follow me
if I but call your name?
Will you go where you don’t know
and never be the same?
Will you let my love be shown,
will you let my name be known?
Will you let my life be grown
in you and you in me?
God has summoned. You have responded.