Have the following thoughts been going through your mind?
“Life’s been great these last few years. I have been out of high school or college and things have all fallen in place. I have a great job. I am making more than a decent wage and having a great time. I have done the bar scene without a care in the world and met a lot of the opposite sex. I could not ask for anything more. Weekends are great, not enough hours to do what I want to do. Mass? That’s the last thing on my mind. Not for me. I’m having just too much fun.
But lately I do not know what is happening. It probably started a few months ago. I am feeling RESTLESS. The things I normally do are not as exciting as they used to be. In fact, I am beginning to wonder what is happening to me. I am just in a quandary and I am RESTLESS. Something is gnawing at me inside and I have no idea what it is. My work does not hold the excitement for me like it used to. The drive and money is not as important as it once was. The bar scene just does not do it for me anymore. I am in a quandary and I am RESTLESS. I think I need some quiet time to think things out to see what’s happening; again I am just too darn RESTLESS.”
Maybe, just maybe you are having a spiritual call to arms.
“What did you say? Who would want a sinner like me? After what I have done, you name it, my transgressions are far too many to name. I would be the last person that God would call.”
Now just hold those thoughts, back up a second. Think about who God is. He is love and his forgiveness is boundless.
“Yeah, but not with a person like me.”
You think you’re the only person who has sinned? Whom God has called even though you have a lurid past? Let me give you an example you can relate to. And he is not from the Bible.
I would assume you have heard of the Jesuits. As you know, Pope Francis is a Jesuit. The founding father of the Jesuits was St Ignatius de Loyola. Let me tell you about him. He came from nobility, and as a young man, he was a soldier and a ladies’ man. He experienced all! Need I say any more?
He lived a sensuous life. Interestingly enough, he was wounded in battle and while he was recuperating, he read books on the life of Christ and the saints. He was drawn to them and thus his conversion to a soldier for Christ!
Listen to you inner voice. Pray and listen. Listen. Seek guidance from a religious. Maybe you are called to serve. It is spiritual call to arms! The answer to resolve the RESTLESSNESS is to listen to your inner voice in solitude. Maybe, just maybe, God is calling you. ALLELUIA!!!